I have struggled at my job as an RN for a very long time because the demands of the job were becoming greater and greater .... because of health issues I am limited in what I can and cannot do, but as business was growing my ability to keep pace has not. I like what I do and I am good at my job (I should be good at it as I have been doing it for over 30 yrs !!!) I have worked most of my life ....
Here I am having to decide if I can keep working or not. Do I retire or should I go on disability? Maybe I just need to take a medical leave of absence. When do I do this? I really wanted to make it at least thru to the end of the year ... that is what I was developing as my plan. But maybe I am just giving up too soon, maybe I am not not trying hard enough, maybe if I get more organized or cut my hours and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. After all I should count myself fortunate just to have a job in this economy ..... yadda yadda yadda yadda ....
And then the bursitis in my hip flared up again ... worse than ever. I couldn't take off right away because the other full time RN was on vacation. By the time I stopped working the pain was excruciating and I was more exhausted than I usually am. So now I am home for 2 weeks, going to Physical Therapy, on pain meds 3x stronger than what I was on and barely able to even sew on the quilts. It is the end of my first week home and the progress I have made is that I realize that I need more than 2 weeks ..... now what?
I think it helps just to write this. I need to keep praying and stick a rod up my butt and be strong enough to face reality !!! That's what .... :-)
